Lost my mojo / motivation ....again ... :(

Ohh how I miss u little poker mojo. Please find ur way back to my heart again:)
Or does this mean I have to go to London for 3 weeks and drink a hell lot of jäger to find you?


Right now it feels like ...it's always the same. I've played milllllions of hands. Flop cbet, fold. Turn c/r, fold to allin. Fold. Fold. Fold. Lose AA vs AK. Same regs. One new fish. Hungry regs. Fish bust, everyone leaves/sits out. Rakeback. Fold. 4bet with 89s, fold to ai. Fold. Robot play. Auto pilot. Try to bluff an idiot, didn't work. Roll eyes. Fold. Flop a set, feel fuzzy and happy inside, fish open folds. FFFFUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!

Just noticed that you can't donate $ to Japan on Stars anymore. Weak. Now what?

Lost my mojo :( ..I need help. Oh, Pokertracker 3 sucks (yes, again).

Dunno what's going on. I know I'm a good player, but I just can't win right now. Lose all my big draws/pps to random shit. The flops are just horrible to my cards..I get 2 outed in every aip and if I flop a set the board will come out with either a 4 flush or a 4 straight ...:(

Decided to play a third session last night, only because..well, the rigg can't be mad forever, right? Wrong. Took me three hands to get aip with QQ only to lose to JJ ...he even got 4 of a kind. Just to rub it in. Yeah, point taken. But it could be worse. I'm not losing money. Just not winning either..


Decided to deposit on FTP again, I love rush. But I can't beat rush. :P Got a bonus and I'm gonna clear that (hopefully). Won 8 buyins on rush yesterday, will probably lose 9 today. :)

The newest update fucked my PT3 so the graph doesn't work. Fuck you Pokertracker, once again. You suck, you are a piece of shit program. It's like you really TRY to piss your customers off. With every update. The mader I get.
 It might be time for "operation cat poop in mailbox".
We'll see.


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Games are awful

I wanna grind but the tables are just..uhh..no. No, ginger, no.

graph from 14th

 ....swingy

session cliffs

 

Graph from yesterday. I was kinda mad when I drew on the graph:) Can you tell?

Todays grind was meh, I tried _so_ hard to win manies, AA (12) win% 58% and lost 24bb :P
KK (13) win% 60, 3,3k hands..dunno how to win manies without big pairs and sets *sad*..lost my ten (!) first sets. Yeah, whine blog. Blah.
Ended with  ~~+250bb.
So I'm fking happy with that. The graph looks pretty retarded so, I'll show u tomorrow:)



Cleared a $10 stellar on stars :D yay. Haha. I play micro stakes PLO there and I sucked a lot today. Kinda tilted there because I got sooo surprise buttsecksed in nlhe. Hope I made someone happy with my play;)

Beat: Flight cancelled :(

Fu Lufthansa.
As I've told u before, I'm going to Miami in January to go on the Ladbrokes poker cruise (wee), flight was cancelled today.....but we'll think of smth:)


Brag: doubled up the 4th hand with KK vs AK.


.... I quit...eheh..

Maybe I should play some PLO on stars?

WTF + session cliffs

VC poker is moving to entraction? WTF is this shit? What happened? Well done ipoker, you can't fail more than this. Really. Look what happened to microgaming. Think they're doing good?



Lots of fish playing last night, of course I tried to catch them, but it looks like they caught me :P Lost AA to QT aif, Q34 or smth, QQ to A8, KK to ..can't even remember, but it was lame. And a set vs set (but that's standard). My biggest "leak" is prolly that I can't fold to fishy players. Of course they're going to hit good sometimes...but...but..they suuuuuck... :)


Think I've decided to not go out tonight....I'm wearing three shirts and I'm still freezing..
It's so cold. So cold. :( It's -10C/14F outside. That's not acceptable.

 

Shit happens:)

This has got to be the coolest bird ever...

Annoying hand + session cliffs

$1.00 BB (5 handed) - BossMedia Converter Tool from FlopTurnRiver.com
MP ($47.91)
Hero (Button) ($95.22)
SB ($101.05)
BB ($205.48)
UTG ($222.52)
Preflop: Hero is Button with A, A  
UTG bets $2, 1 fold, Hero raises to $10, 2 folds, UTG calls $10  


Flop: ($21.50) 9, K, 8  UTG checks, Hero bets $17, UTG raises to $34, Hero folds  


ffffffffuuuuuuuuuuu

Dunno. Just tilts me.

arrrrr

bad beat of the day:

me: AA
retard: 89
flop: A89


I didn't win :(((((((

3 way all in too, no idea what the other guy had
owell.
revenge shall be mine!

session cliffs

officially giving up ...yes..already.
I just can't win.

also: trying to complete this :P

I need to watch mtt videos :P maybe they'll teach me how to run good?

ARGHHHhh!! So close!!!!

Finished 2nd in a mtt today ...I'm still pretty disgusted since I lost AJ vs KJ aip......*puke*
anyway, still playing cg and one  last tournament ..let's see how it goes.

Down about 2 buy ins in cg
. . . . . . . . . . ahhh . . . . . . . still disgusted. Like I can feel the taste of vomit in my mouth. No wonder my nick is barfbreath hehe:)

I stabbed myself. God I suck!!!!

Stabbed myself in the hand with a knife, not sure if I should go have it looked at since it almost went straight through..between the thumb and the index finger. Disgusting. Good thing it's my left hand.

No poker today because I suck


fml

Swings? WHAT!!

:P
Giving up now.
Played a few tournies, busted with the best hand in all (80-20 kthx) *whine*
biggest cash was like $30, yay..

Cg was disgusting, could never win as a huge fav when I was all in.......*cry*
Dunno if I'm up or down for tonight actually. Doesn't matter. I'm going to be happy now. :)

Almost read the whole chapter about 5cd now (I know, I'm slow..I should totally start smoking again -I read a lot when I was a smoker..anyway), it's sooo retarded and I MUST PLAY IT ! :D Maybe even some 7 card stud, I suck at that too. I must be the fish that everyone chases in those games. Loves it.

cg on boss, mtts on b2b, ipoker, ftp, stars.../kill

Session cliffs (lol :( )

Haha...had to give it a try. My brain is probably not back to normal yet though :P felt like a cotton ball.

boss: +17 bb (weee!!!)

Party (hahahahaha!!!!!) +2 bb

Dunno if all in ev is working? I got it in with AK vs 99 on 78K and it thinks I was the underdog? wtf

Session cliffs

Played my freerolls, rigged as always..lost a 99.39% :P haha..impressive, right? Oh well..I can be bitter when I'm older.

Cg was rigged too :( A few setups and lots of suckouts. So I'm happy with -180bb..you can't win EVERY time..right?
Gonna try to stay awake for a while now so I can skip sleep the night before the flight..have to leave at like 5 am anyway and I usually go to bed around 3.

So..coffee now. :) haha..it's 1.42 am here.


edit
found me a nice retard (92/44) with 700 bb

  up  345bb now :) the "wee" was a veery secksy pot vs retard..my plan worked *proud* :) I bet 33 into 120 on the river with a flush (flopped it) and he went allin with A5 high, missed flush.

bla bla bla...

today is a very very very bad day. you think you know someone after 13 years. but nope.
and no, this is not bf whine.. :)

new day tomorrow!
and I hate world cup..

going to drink coffee now and think evil thoughts. so evil.
:)

damn u world cup!!!!

only regs playing......how exciting...? should I play mtts instead?

edit
  playing a few mtts and cg even though there are no good tables..meh, up 120 bb or so.

playing rush poker as well and I think I'm up like 1 bi there but it's a little rigged today :P

Getting ready for grind :)

Yap. Won't start till ~6 pm though (in ~4 hours).
Weather sucks today (again) so that's ghey too. Wanna go to Vegas tomorrow:(

I think I'm going to try my new nickname out too, I have a new account set up on ongame ..havn't been fishing there for quite some time now so I hope there are some donks left for me..and the new client sucks too. I saw that they still have no waitinglist..that's pretty f-ed up?

I just kinda noticed I'm using the fat girl angle on almost all my pics. Might be because I'm a little fat but I dunno. At least I'm not doing the duck face on all pics. :) Just some. When I'm really hammered.

And yes. Kitty wants to travel too.

Food poisoning ftw

..not.
No grind today, it's probably -ev to play when you have to run to the toilet to throw up every now and then.

But it's Friday tomorrow and hopefully there'll be lots of drunk donks just waiting to give me money.

my cat is pretty

Sick..

Ya..not feeling 100% today..more like 23.
And no money. They're all fuckers, just holding my precious dollars, rubbing them and touching them in ways they never imagined. My poor, poor monies... :(
I did sent them an e mail today and all I got was a lousy "they'll get back to you when they can" ...in like a month?

I'm just so pissed off today I'm not even gonna bother with anything today...

Boreeeeeeeeeeed

No money. Not even a "thank you Alex, we loved your passport pic (but maybe you should smile next time...?), ur cashout will take x bank days..have a nice day!" ..
Entertain me pls? Websites? Games? Porn? HITME! if the retarded comment doesn't work, write me a god damn e mail alexwentpro[ at ] hotmail.com

making faces in the webcam is fun for about...25 seconds.